Category Archives: Embrace the Crazy

I have plans.

I bought this desk when we closed the store because I knew it would be perfect for inspiring creativity and calm in writing. (I couldn’t believe it’s almost been 6 mo since my last post!) I closed the store 6 weeks ago…writing desk

Monday, one week after we closed the store and moved 1100 sq ft of retail stuff home…Monday, one day after we got home from having set up for a 3 day retreat and recreated the store in a mobile site I made plans.  I was cleaning up the work room and family room (aka dumping ground of Do Good store stuff) when the phone rang.   “I know it’s a long shot but I wondered if you would consider selling your house.”  Excuse me?! What?! Ummmm, let me talk to my husband. Talk. Pray. Talk. Pray.

Wednesday – Yes, we would consider selling our house. Give me a few days to get it ready before you come and look at it. (The caller was an old friend whom we hadn’t talked with in forever so it wasn’t like it was a stranger calling.  The biggest question at that moment though was where we were going to put all of this stuff?!)

Saturday – take the kids and go look at a potential new house that had just come on the market.  Everyone loved the space (not so much the blue counters and wallpaper) but this could work.  It checked the biggest box on the list of having a room big enough to hold our growing crew.

Sunday – go back through the open house. Still like the house.

Tuesday – another call.  “You aren’t going to believe this. There is an offer coming in this afternoon on the house you looked at this past weekend.  What would you like to do?”  Excuse me?! What?! Ummmm, let me talk to my husband. Talkpraytalkpray. And this tiny whisper of a voice asking “Do you trust me?” On this day every prayer for guidance was answered with this whisper of a question.

Let’s do this.  We don’t want to lose another house (that was how we ended up here – in my Never House.)  Every door thus far has been opened for us before we even had to knock on it (including the financing for this crazy idea.)

Tuesday night – the phone again. “Congratulations! They accepted your offer.”  GULP! We looked at each other and said “I think we accidently just bought another house.” Our heads were spinning. We don’t do stuff like this! God was moving on this, and fast, affirming and shoving us through new doors (literally!)  We hadn’t even had a chance to show the old friend who set this whole situation in motion our house yet.

I made plans.  I closed the store because I have a senior and a freshman.  Since the store has been closed I have fed teams breakfast, lunch and dinner, made snack bags, created pinterest locker decorations and treats (for the girls obviously – boys don’t care about cute pinterest crafting.) I have attended games, cheered, held my breath, covered my eyes when I couldn’t stand the pressure, cried bittersweet tears over the whole situation, and prayed like a crazed mama. We have nursed injuries, had x-rays, sat out games, and had moments of glory.  We have written papers, packed lunches, visited colleges, shopped for a homecoming dress (this was a very new experience – boys and formals are so, so, much easier!)  and smiled for pictures.

Oh and did I mention cleaning and cleaning and cleaning and cleaning. This is beginning to feel like the movie Groundhog Day.  I made plans. We bought another house because our house was as good as sold. (HA!) The family whose call set this in motion came out and looked at the house. These puzzle pieces would not fit together. “Do you trust me?” Two weeks ago we officially listed our house. Within the first 24 hours we had 10 calls with realtors wanting to set up appointments. We had an open house with over 25 couples and in the last week the house has been shown seven times. “Do you trust me?” I’m more than kind of freaking out and I don’t even know my name half the time anymore and I’m flying by the seat of my pants while we’re feeding the teams and attending the games and making the beds and hiding the laundry. (How is a person supposed to do the laundry, fold the laundry, and put it all away when there is a house showing everyday? Laundry is an all day event at our house.)

And, oh yes, I closed the store. I made plans. This was the original plan.  That was how all of this got started. Yesterday, I began setting up a new “mini studio” in a new space. I was asked to be part of a brand new artesian market place. The concept and space are so cool I couldn’t say no.  Plus, the owner is generously donating a portion of their proceeds back to Love Runners as well!

God's plansI made plans. I was going to take September off and just breathe (my exact words!) I made plans. I was going to sit at my super cute new desk and write.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11

I made plans. My plans were safe. My plans were comfortable. But instead of my plans I am choosing trust. And, in doing so find myself leaning into these verses and coming away with the crazy peace that Jesus gives.

“Rather, cling tightly to the Lord your God as you have done until now.” Joshua 23:8

“Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you.” Psalms 37:4-5

“The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand.” Psalms 37:23-24

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” Proverbs 3:5-6

““I am the Lord, the God of all the peoples of the world. Is anything too hard for me?” Jeremiah 32:27

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7

“Do you trust me?” Yes.  I am trying very hard to. But some days I just want to make my own plans the agenda for the day, to make the world conform to my timeline. And that is the truth and reality in the situation.

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This is my life…

 Let me first make the bold recommendation that if you can ever help it, do NOT move over the Christmas/New Year holiday. Especially if that move involves major renovations that you intend to complete yourselves while living in your new home.

You can now probably guess what we have been up to over the last several weeks. But instead of lamenting on kitchens with no water, or cabinet doors, or even appliances, let me tell you why the dog’s empty food dish is currently sitting in the front seat of my car and how tonight it struck me as a picture of what life is really like.

I have realized that I keep looking for the day when life looks neat and orderly. I keep thinking that as soon as this sport, or this project, or this move are finished days will go as they are planned. Hours will pass  quietly and uneventfully. I am beginning to realize that it might never happen.

We are currently living in a house I swore I would have never moved to. (More on that in the coming days.) Our old house sold in a market we never thought it would have to buyers who were looking for something completely different. Our days have become an adventure in which God is leading us and I am breathing easier through all the changes knowing we are following Him.

This is life…

In sub-zero wind chills we left Urgent Care to pick up an antibiotic for Mae and the sore throat-congested crud that has made her such a joy the last two days. We also had to return a bathroom rug and pick up more bathroom storage containers while we were out. It was a shopping trip with a 16 year old and a 13 year old and I swear they are more difficult and slower than when they were 6 and 3 and I could load them in a cart and just keep moving. But they are also filled with more laughs as they clown around in the curtain isle, pretending the drape samples are fancy scarves and speaking with French accents. Next stop while I had my (not-so) happy helpers was the hardware store to buy a couple of kitchen pantry cabinets that my husband promised would fit in my car. We got the cabinets (and a sled and driveway reflectors because our new driveway is a little hard to find-the cable guy ended up making his own path through the front yard last week in the snow. He required two tow trucks and a few hours to get freed up.)

For your entertainment…we now have a “service entrance.”

And we had one more item that would change the course of our evening, causing the dog’s dish to end up in my car, a pair of insulated work gloves.

This is life…

Of course only one cabinet fit, and then just barely. We got thawed out about halfway home with plans to unload and go back for the second one.  Five minutes after we were home I was desperately patting Ty’s cheek trying to get him back to consciousness after he cut his finger with a utility knife trying to unpackage his gloves. He had gone into shock, lost consciousness twice and was the gray pasty color of the drywall that is partially done in the family room. I helped him down the steps to the car, grabbing the empty dog food bowl as we passed it and he said he was going to be sick. We headed back to Urgent Care for the second time in 3.5 hrs. But not before Mae helped me haul the pantry cabinet out of the car, leaving it standing as a totem pole abandoned in our driveway.

 Thankfully, Phil beat us to Urgent Care, parked my car, and then took over and stayed with Ty while they got him put back together.

This is life…

We try to dress it up and put a pretty face on it, especially for other people but in reality it’s bloody, and messy, and unpredictable. And it can change in the blink of an eye.

Tonight, with boxes everywhere, flooring half done, drywall half up, and pizza for dinner, again, I am thankful for so many things. A warm fire in the fireplace, Cabin socks (some of my new favorite things) but mostly having my family safely tucked in their beds tonight. Battered and bruised but none the worse for wear.

I started a book study last November that coincided with our decision to sell our house. “All the Places to Go . . . How Will You Know” by John Ortberg. This excerpt is what started it all for us and I have so much more to share about where we are headed in the coming days and the journey that it’s been to get here.

“We chose it because the adventure of yes seemed more alive than the safety of no. Very rarely in the Bible does God come to someone and say, “Stay.” Almost never does God interrupt someone and ask them to remain in comfort, safety, and familiarity. He opens a door and calls them to come through it.”

Hopefully you all had a Merry Christmas and a more restful start to the new year than we did. I’ve missed you!  Here’s to God’s open doors and living His adventure…Here’s to life!

Making it count…

photo-1This summer I don’t feel like my brain has ventured far from the shallow-end of the pool – it was a much needed break!   But, August is approaching – quickly – and no matter how hard  we try we will never outrun it.

Every year, one of the many things that August brings with it is a spark of anticipation (bittersweet though it may be) of a return to “normal life.” My brain, now well rested, is beginning to buzz with thoughts and ideas and fall projects.  (I love a new project.) I am excited to get back here, to share life and lessons, and hopefully some laughs along the way.   I hope you will join me on an adventure this fall…it may even require some new school supplies just for you!  (Who doesn’t love a new notebook and colored pens?!) Stay tuned for details but in the meantime..

Life is passing rapidly.  Fiercely commit to every moment you find beautiful and remember it.  Record it. Fully, whole-heartedly inhabit it.  Awareness is one of the greatest  things you can possess in this life as it is as important as the very air we breathe and water we drink to stay alive.” ~ Victoria Erickson

…Squeeze every last bit you can out of your summer!

See you in August!

Joy Ride Challenge

According to a study I found online (which means it’s 100% accurate) I read that children laugh 400 times a day compared to adults who laugh 17 times a day.

Sometimes life gets a little rough, but we all need a bit of joy in our lives. We often talk about the more solemn warnings of the Bible…how to live our lives or how not to live our lives. But the Bible also talks about joy and laughter.

“This is the day the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it.” (Psalm 118:24) Laughter is good for the soul even though, as it says in Proverbs 14:13, in laughter the heart may be in pain. A cheerful heart is good medicine. (Proverbs 17:22)

Today I have an assignment for you,The Joy Ride Challenge, should you choose to accept it. It may or may not be easy depending on where you find yourself today

Here’s how…If you haven’t yet, watch the Joy Ride video. Then, pick something from the video and go out and do it! Blow bubbles in your milk, make a splash, do a silly dance…

I would love to know what you pick. Laughter is contagious, so please share.

God knows your struggles, let him have them for today, even if it’s just for a moment while you take a deep breath and maybe find your laughter.